Tuesday, November 27, 2012


Here's my view tonight--looking at our skirtless, starless Christmas tree. 
Skirtless because I am picky (and cheap). Not good combos when it comes to purchasing a tree skirt. 
Dang those things are ca$h money!
Starless because our tree is 9 feet tall and so are our ceilings! The star will have to wait. 

Part of the reason I have been so crappy at blogging is because we didn't really have a computer (until NOW! Thank you Black Friday!) I got a new computer a year ago but it was pretty cheap and one day I picked it up and water was dripping from it so that was the end of that.

I am finding myself at a crossroads today. Do you ever feel that way? 
One day I will wake up from an amazing dream where I just gave birth to a beautiful baby and it feels so real. The rest of the day is spent thinking up baby names and looking at baby clothes online. 
I wake up sad that I'm not a mother (yet) and that inner yearning consumes my mind the rest of the day..week....
And then another day I'll wake up, go to work, and feel very optimistic about my future and opportunities as a nurse. There are SO MANY opportunities to advance in my career. Especially with my young age, and my education. Did you know I have a higher degree than my manager right now? I have been blessed with so many opportunities and I feel like I could work my way up the ladder really easily, and really quickly. It excites me. 
I look at the young mom in church who has 3 kids and is pregnant with her 4th. Their family doesn't have a dime, but they are so busy and so happy. Their kids are their lives and it doesn't matter if their clothes match or if everything is hand me downs. They live for their family and I think that's great. 
So which road will win? 
To me, it's my family. Hands down. But when? and does that mean I have to ultimately give up my career? 
I never thought I would come to this crossroad. 
But never say never. 
Here I am! 

Monday, November 19, 2012


If you are easily offended, this may not be the post for you. I am about to share some opinions that I don't always like to share because I consider myself a peacekeeper. I hate confrontation. But civilization is full of idiots, and I just need to talk about it. 

First off, if you did not vote for this man, you're an idiot. HA, I told you I would be bold.  But seriously, look at that man. I'm still heartbroken. Election night was a horrible night for me. Luna did not know how to comfort me. I was inconsolable. 
Let me share with you a few words: 

You cannot help the poor by destroying the rich.
You cannot strengthen the weak by weakening the strong.
You cannot bring about prosperity by discouraging thrift.
You cannot lift the wage earner up by pulling the wage payer down.
You cannot further the brotherhood of man by inciting class hatred.
You cannot build character and courage by taking away men's initiative and independence.
You cannot help men permanently by doing for them, what they could and should do for themselves.

I typed a couple more paragraphs of rants and raves about my political views, but I decided to save that for another day & make this post a little less angry.

The other day at work I was taking care of this homeless guy who came in because he was drinking straight whisky for an entire day, fell over, hit his head, and the paramedics found him unconscious on the ground. So of course they bring all the fun ones to us at TMC. He was such an idiot & completely hungover and rude to me the entire time. Here's part of our conversation:

Him: "I gotta go right now. Why won't you let me leave? I gotta meet up with some chick-she took my debit card and is gunna take all my money." 
Me: "Sir I can't let you leave without your dr's clearing you safe to leave." 
Another nurse came in: "What's going on?" 
Me: "He wants to leave against medical advice just so he can meet up with his wife." 
Him: "Excuse me b**** but it's not "just my wife" We've been together 20 years and have 2 kids together..blah blah blah" 
Me (thinking in my head): First off, you misheard me. Secondly, 2 seconds ago didn't you just call her "some chick" and say she was going to steal all your money? Sounds like a great marriage. You're a jerk...and an idiot. 

And he left 10 minutes later...hallelujah!!! 
I love my job and the idiots I meet everyday. 

Luna loves to watch football. She sat on our couch all by herself and stared at the tv like this for a good 5-10 minutes. It was sorta cute but she's an idiot. I hate watching football and can't wait until this season is over.  

We were at the dog park with Luna and there was this little white fluffy dog named "Carl" that had on a sweater with suspenders on it. He looked harmless but he packed a punch. He had a thing for bigger dogs and he loved to jump up on the bigger dogs and hump them. His owner would yell 
"Carrrrrl! You're an idiot!" and it was hysterical. Maybe you had to be there.

I flushed the toilet last night even though I could tell that the water level was low and that it was more than likely clogged. Well, it was definitely clogged. 2 trips to Lowe's (on a Sunday, no less) & a few curse words and dry heaves later, we fixed it. 
I'm an idiot. 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Blogging emotions

I found myself on my old blog the other day and it brought back so many emotions I didn't think I had. 
Maybe I was a little too personal? HA...regardless, that was a journey that I needed to talk about somewhere or else it would have killed me dead. & now I love going back to read my old (sometimes cheesy) posts. I think the reason I haven't posted on here as much is because I try to dig down deep to some of those same emotions that used to drive my posts...aaaaaand I got nothin'. Maybe because this is life I've always dreamed of, maybe because I am so very happy and life is pretty low stress right now. Maybe because my emotions are usually one level all the time now...except when R makes me mad because then I throw spaghetti! True story-watch out! (sorry babe--he gets the brunt of it all and still loves me. Miracle!) 

Oh, so I found out the other day that I can be a mom. First, we got a puppy. And puppies are kind of like babies. Except our baby sleeps through the night. I told Ryan that if she didn't, we are going to have a baby because I'm not going through that more than I have to. I was at work looking on craigslist and my co-worker convinced me to look at beagle puppies. That was my first mistake. Once you go there, there is no looking back. Needless to say, I found Luna, asked Ryan, he said OK, and we had her 24 hours later. HA! We love our widdle Luna. It took me a little longer to get attached to her than Ryan (she is Ryan's BABY!) I think I hesitated for a while because I grew  up with a beagle and she was an amazing dog. My childhood dog Kitty will always hold my heart and Luna sorta had to prove herself...but she did...and she is so loved!!!!!

Another mom moment when we got to babysit my nephew and nieces for a whole weekend in October!...so if I have a 5,2, and 10 month old at the same time I'd be good cuz we got a good routine down. Unfortunetly (or fortunetly) babies don't come like that...

Don't let my face fool you...we had a blast with them and loved getting closer with them. They are so stinkin cute & fun!! I also now understand why moms go to bed at 9pm. Because we did both nights. Carter lost his FIRST TOOTH that weekend & we managed to keep all the poop (from the dog and babies) off the carpet and on my arms and hands. 

Here's our new baby Luna. Isn't she precious? This was her costume for Halloween. We went trick or treating with my nephews and Luna was the talk of the neighborhood....especially when she'd start jogging and her cowboy would throw his hat around like a regular cowboy. Amazingly, she kept the costume on all night long. I think she liked all the attention :) Whatttttt a haaaam.