Here's my view tonight--looking at our skirtless, starless Christmas tree.
Skirtless because I am picky (and cheap). Not good combos when it comes to purchasing a tree skirt.
Dang those things are ca$h money!
Starless because our tree is 9 feet tall and so are our ceilings! The star will have to wait.
Part of the reason I have been so crappy at blogging is because we didn't really have a computer (until NOW! Thank you Black Friday!) I got a new computer a year ago but it was pretty cheap and one day I picked it up and water was dripping from it so that was the end of that.
I am finding myself at a crossroads today. Do you ever feel that way?
One day I will wake up from an amazing dream where I just gave birth to a beautiful baby and it feels so real. The rest of the day is spent thinking up baby names and looking at baby clothes online.
I wake up sad that I'm not a mother (yet) and that inner yearning consumes my mind the rest of the day..week....
And then another day I'll wake up, go to work, and feel very optimistic about my future and opportunities as a nurse. There are SO MANY opportunities to advance in my career. Especially with my young age, and my education. Did you know I have a higher degree than my manager right now? I have been blessed with so many opportunities and I feel like I could work my way up the ladder really easily, and really quickly. It excites me.
I look at the young mom in church who has 3 kids and is pregnant with her 4th. Their family doesn't have a dime, but they are so busy and so happy. Their kids are their lives and it doesn't matter if their clothes match or if everything is hand me downs. They live for their family and I think that's great.
So which road will win?
To me, it's my family. Hands down. But when? and does that mean I have to ultimately give up my career?
I never thought I would come to this crossroad.
But never say never.
Here I am!