Monday, June 27, 2016

Should I wear pants today?

Should I Wear Pants Today? (Teal)

I love that print. I’m pretty sure I just bought it so that I can get it in the mail and put it in my pile with the rest of the pictures and prints I’ve ordered but have yet to hang in our house (it’s been 2 years). I blame it on our busy life, which I feel is really busy these days, but then again everyone is busy and manages to get things done so why can’t I? It's a good day if I put pants on. Seriously. Like, I'm serious. Most days it's the G's and a robe until noon, or scrubby workout clothes that I probably pulled out of the hamper.

Here’s what’s keeping us busy in this stage of life:
-Ryan works full time. His hours are never the same day to day, which is insanely annoying because trying to plan life between our 2 work schedules is a nightmare. I feel like every night he’s busy, too. He either has to mow the lawn, or go to scouts, or plays softball, or helps his dad with a project, or plays basketball, or goes golfing. All good things I suppose. He’s usually home in time for us to watch a show or 2, and you know how I love my shows.

-I work 2 nights a week. My new job is pretty good and the pay is pretty great. I don’t feel like I’m keeping up with my nursing skills like I did with my old job where I was in the middle of everything. Now, as a float nurse, I just kind of skim the surface. It’s ok though I guess. This isn’t my passion. I don’t know what my passion is, but this definitely isn’t it. It works for now. And I’m thankful to have health insurance!

-I get really overwhelmed with housework. Either my house is a complete pigsty and will stay that way for several days. Or else I get really OCD and clean like a mad woman. I wish I could maintain a cleaning schedule but my work schedule changes each week so that makes it hard. I’m kind of obsessed with having a clean house but if I don’t have the time/energy to do it well, then I don’t do it at all. Plus it depends on Mack as well. Somedays he just won’t let me. Too whiny, clingy, needy, etc. Toddler problems.

- Ryan has 2 callings that keep him super busy—11 year old scout leader, and sunbeam teacher. I teach the Beehives at church. Thursday nights & Sundays are always packed. They’re fun callings though. We’re learning a lot and getting stretched, so that’s good. Somedays I have a hard time relating to the beehives. I don’t think they get my sense of humor and so I feel really awkward and lame. And then other days they say the most amazing things during a lesson and I’m blown away by how spiritual they are!

-Mack is 17 months old! Holy cow. I don’t think I need to explain the busy part about this child. He just is. He’s either busy getting into things, creating messes, destroying things, or running around naked. He is exhausting. He’s 95% for everything (height, weight, head) so basically he’s huge and my back hurts 95% of the time. Carrying him up the stairs is hard. Add pregnancy and I’m winded after 2 steps. Like, I have to lean over and catch my breath . Phew. Even though this stage is exhausting, there are some days where I just have an absolute blast with him, he can be so fun! Like I look at him and think, you’re my real life little friend. He can say the usual: mama, dada, papa, Luna (na na), dog but some of his favorite words are truck (everything is a truck, he’s obsessed), ball, hi, bye, water (wa wa), Jesus, Cici (his cousin), tree, please (pwees), thank you (tee too) …there’s more, I’m just forgetting. He loves to make people laugh and makes farting noises on my bare skin whenever he gets the chance. He’s a feisty little nugget and sometimes can be a  little bully with his peers when he doesn’t get his way (sorry, nursery). He’s just a giant and likes to boss people around. He’s a great eater (everything expect veggies), sleeps 11-12 hours at night but only naps like 45 mins- 1 hour during the day womp womppppp…I just have this intense love for him and he is such a part of who I am as a person now. It’s a cool feeling to be that intertwined with your child. The unconditional love is for real. Don’t get me wrong though, I’m probably a crappy mom. The other day he wouldn’t stop grinding his teeth and I got so mad at him. I absolutely hate that sound. I legit yelled, grabbed his face really hard, and put him in time out. I felt so bad afterwards, he had giant alligator tears, yet still wanted me to pick him up and love him. Makes me cringe just thinking about it. I have a lot to learn from him.

This post is long. I think that’s enough of an update for now. We’re going to Utah this week! I can’t wait to see all my friends and family and be with Ryan and Mack for 10 days straight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!